what i’m learning

–it’s important to be surrounded by people you love

–getting to eat whatever you want is a privledge, and having the time/resources to make delicious food all the time definitely makes eating more enjoyable

–ultimate frisbee is something i can throw myself into and temporarily forget about whatever else is going on

–sitting in a desk chair all day is tiring

–it’s really important to be surounded by people you love

–eventually it becomes necessary to stop avoiding potentially awkward or uncomfortable situations, and when you do this, you open up a lot more possibilities to yourself

–i had forgotten what it was like to be reading a book that i couldnt put down

–guitar gets easier if you practice every day

–universities have SO MANY resources, even if you feel like you aren’t actively taking advantage of them, there are so many that you are benefitting from unbeknownst to you it’s amazing

–experiences are more meaningful when shared with people that are important to you

–making alone time each day is very important

–it’s so important to be surrounded by people you love

 

…my post-miami plans are to go spend time with the people i love 🙂

ultimate

Just a little update–

Last Monday I started playing Ultimate Frisbee with U Miami’s women’s team… they practice twice a week and then have beach ultimate once a week (or so the trend has been for the past two weeks, though I’m pissed because I haven’t been able to to to beach ultimate yet).  The first day felt SO GOOD– like something familliar and comfortable, like reverting to an old habit or coming back to your own kitchen: doing plios, and drills, and stretching in a circle of girls rehashing their mostly alcoholic weekend adventures.  What I love about it is this

– getting to breathe and run after a day staring at a computer screen with my butt in a chair… the most motion I get is getting up to pee or spinning around in my chair

– while I’m there, I forget my emotions, and stress, and tasks and obligations, and instead focus on the game and my game and it’s all physical and strategy and timing, but so removed from emotions and thoughts that I can’t seem to get rid of for most of the day

– meeting new people and being around girls my age in a college setting.  I think when I go back to Brown I’ll really appreciate this– the college community, the norms, the hectic life and this being a break from that

Today I almost didn’t go because I was so tired (deprioritizing sleep, once again) but I ended up going with Monica to get sneakers and then we went to practice together.  I felt much more awake afterwards than I had all day.

Here is why (I think) I deprioritize sleep:

Alone time is really important to me.  I like to be by myself, either on my computer, or tidying my room, or cooking, reading, driving and listening to music, playing guitar, writing, creating… when I feel like I don’t get enough hours of my own time, I tend to stay up late to make up for it, just because it’s an easy time to find to be alone.  Which is good for my emotional health, but then it causes me to lack sleep, and feel physically gross and ailing all day.  We had a time management seminar at HSC the other day– I need to set boundaries for myself and stick with them.  8 hours of sleep a night. Or at least seven.  Still need to figure out how much alone time I really need, but I have the feeling it’s in the arena of 2 to 4 hours.