Mmmmm

So I haven’t written in a month. Or two. But when it comes down to it, if I have the choice between fleshing out thoughts on a computer screen, or talking to some of my favorite people on a porch after dark, I choose the latter.

After months of debating with myself, my plans for fall have changed a bit. Not sure exactly what I’ll be doing now, but it’s in the works. As if I have any spare time to plan between capture the flag, low ropes, CILTs, and PB&J. But whatever. I actually feel a lot more settled now that I’m not locked into a plan that I never felt fully comfortable with in the first place.

As I consider how to spend my time from September to January, I’m realizing that my attitude towards people is changing. I have always been more of the type of person who does what she wants, regardless of friends or family or whatever group it is. I went to camp alone, then the Outdoor Academy, then college across the country. And I had planned this semester to be very independent as well. But I’m realizing more and more that I can simultaneously be independent AND be surrounded by people I love. Such as my aunt in England. Or friends and family in San Mateo. Or crazy camp friends travelling to New Orleans. Maybe what I need to get from this time is to feel close to the people I already care about, instead of isolating myself from them in order to try to grow on my own. There is a time for that, but I don’t think that time is now. The more I think about being close to people I love, the better I feel about these coming months. There are so many people I care about scattered across the globe that it seems almost ridiculous to go somewhere that there isn’t anybody who is already a part of my life.

things i like include…

• story people
• my friend Pat
• a softer world, overqualified, and joey & emily
• Brian Andreas and his blog, zen bandit
• the blog I told you to read by Hannah who’s in the peace corps in Mali
• Colette

… basically I would just like to encourage you to peruse the links on the bottom righthand side of my page.  All things I feel are worth your time to read.  Don’t get carried away– I could spend hours on these things.  But it’s better time spent than facebook, I think.

day one

I guess this is the beginning of my time off.  I just finished my sophomore year of college and I’m taking the fall off and hopefully having some adventures… my plans as of now include working at summer camp, going to Mali, and working at an NGO in Miami.  I have a little more than eight months til I have to go back to school.  This is the longest I’ve been out of school since I was a toddler!  Very strange.  I don’t even know where to start.  But I guess unpacking my suitcases would be a good idea.